Wednesday, February 15, 2012

goodbye angel

Just after midnight last night my baby left my body. I'm naming the baby Shiloh Rune. Shiloh means peace or His gift and Rune means secret. There is a small grave under the new apple tree in our yard.

We found out on January 23rd that our baby had no heartbeat.

These last few weeks of waiting have been so hard. Last Thursday I finally started seeing signs that my body had realized what happened and was doing what it needed to do. In the afternoon on valentine's day I went into labor and it was the same as I remember labor being with my girls. It took about 6 hours of contractions and 10 minutes after midnight it was finally over. I got to hold my baby and look at the tiny hands and feet and say goodbye. Now I can heal and we can move on and prepare for our next challenge as Eric gets ready to deploy again.

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1 comment:

Kathryn said...

First, I want to say I am so so sorry for you and your family and for your loss. Second, I want to say I know exactly how you feel. I too, miscarried a baby before I had my son. I know how hard and rough it can be, but just trust in God He will carry you through. Praying for you for peace in comfort during this time.