alone

Let me start by saying I adore my children. I want to be with them almost all the time. I love teaching them new things, applauding their accomplishments, and kissing their owies. Today I had 6 hours to myself. An hour in the car each way with whatever I wanted on the radio and sometimes silence. I walked down every aisle at Hobby Lobby without once having to say "don't touch that!" and I sat and looked through pattern books without interruption. I ate lunch at De La Vega's and read a book without picking up crayons from beneath the table or mopping up spilled juice. I tried on a dozen things at Target without rushing and without comments about the size of my backside or the amount of stretchmarks on my tummy. And while I was in the "big city" I got an iced coffee at Starbucks. It was heaven. The best part is I got to come home to big smiles, little voices shouting "mama's home!", and beautiful sticker filled anniversary cards.